there used to be a time

a time when you were happy

living the life of a child

a child having fun

having fun in the sun

in the sun and in the night

until one day—

everything changed

 

Everything Changed.

 

you never knew what went wrong

but wrong it went

the only option you saw

was read. escape.

escape because your life was

out of control

there was no fixing it

for you had tried

 

And Failed.

 

so you ran away

led your mind to another reality

a desired reality

one after the next

of fiction and of fantasy

pretty petty romance

and maybe even horror too

all to get a smile

 

You Loved It.

 

‘till your self went numb

such iciness cooling your wounds

on autopilot evermore

your feet acting with no command

your hands swiping, flipping pages

running from demand

without conscious thought

your mind sedated to

 

The Blade.

 

but sooner or later—

you had to wake up

you had to return

to the heartache

and disease

return to the screaming

when you could not scream

for this world you live in, you became

 

Something In A Terrain.

 

by mind, by body, by soul

the demons had

awoken

had done so and so

every night and day

giving some seas curses

and racked dismay

with no remorse

 

But That Isn’t All.

 

the demons say

live life blindly; so it’s

unwanted

without chance to prepare

for the worst

of days, possibilities

sowhatwillyoudo

sowhatwillyoudo

 

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